honestly i hate my life. everything is going down. my family, my friends, me myself and everything. and everytime the ones i thought who would be there, they were never there. sometimes simplest things like finding someone to talk to make it so difficult. and i will end up crying and then cheering myself up on my own - this feels lonely and i hate it. maybe i deserve it. i'm so tired of waking up hoping that everything is gonna be great. i wanna wake up knowing everything will be great