hello

i guess since the year's ending soon and i have the time now, i should try writing down how far this year had been for me. 2009.. honestly, i hate this year. definitely not a good one for me. maybe because of the Os, maybe because many other things happened, maybe because.. everyone's growing up too fast? everyone's drifting apart because we were all just too busy with our lives, too many problems to deal with. yea, i guess that's why..

though this year had been bad for me, there are still a few other happy things that happened this year. family, friends.. i guess i've learnt alot this year in a way or another? the people around me.. and maybe myself. i wasn't really as strong as i thought. little things can break me easily. i really never thought i would ever cry over something.. like that.. for months. and i'm really glad that now, i can say i'm strong? (since after all the bad things, i'm still here) though things turned out really bad for me, but i'm still thankful for whatever had happened as, maybe through all the things that happened made me realise that life can really be so interesting. without these ups and downs, life would be a boring shit don't you think so? but i know that when you are at your downs, sometimes the hurt is really unbearable and it really do makes you wanna cry..

i wanna say sorry to all who i have hurt you in a way or so if i had.. you know i didn't mean it. sorry to those whom i have made you sad. i'm sorry.

thank you to all those whom had shown love to me, to all those whom had shown care and concern for me, to all those who were there when i need someone to talk to and.. to all those who had hurt me (don't worry, you're all forgiven). you guys have helped me to grow up alot this year. stronger. and thank you God, for Your love, for everything. sorry i let You down at times. i love You.

and i hope i can end this year strong

p.s hehe, ok i think i kinda messed up the whole post but anyway, that's all i wanna say and i hope you guys had a great 2009. let's look forward to 2010 together!!!