(angry and emotional post)

1. i'm angry at myself for being angry at my mom just because.. i'm angry
2. i just wasted my time effort money going all the way to Bedok just to have dinner and then clementi to have supper when i could actually just stick my butt to my computer chair, stay home and have free lunch dinner supper (no breakfast cos i woke up only at 1pm)
3. i could have freaking save $10 (that's my daily pocket money)
4. i'm seriously spending too much on food clothes movies when i'm not even working
5. i need to work but i'm just too lazy
6. i thought holidays are going to be so much fun and it turned out to be.. so far.. boring
7. spending a day alone at home makes me feel very very lonely
8. it really discourages me to be caring so much when no one appreciates it
9. i really hope someone can just tell me i'm irritating so i can stop all these nonsense
10. it's been a long time since i really felt like being cared for
11. i feel like giving up

i read through this long list and i realised everything's about me.. my expectations, my emotions, my feelings. omg why am i so self-centered? i hate myself. bye.