a few months ago..
leejie: wahlao daph i very sad leh. (continue to complain about that stupid jellyfish)
daph: eh leejie he's a stupid jerk why you still like him? i thought like, you know the person is bad, you get turned off then feelings just fade? you sure can forget one, cheer up!^^
leejie: (thinking 'haiz daph you just dont get it..')

and just a few days back while shopping for valA's present..
cel: haizzzzz what should we get for valA?
daph: dunno leh..
cel: what did we buy for her last year?
val: pencil case!
cel: just pencil case?
daph: eh....
val: oh and notebook.
cel: wah like that only?
val: haha my birthday you guys bought me a pencil case and a wallet.
cel: oh... then what did we bought for you daph?
daph: sweets...
cel and val: OH YA -burst into laughter-
cel: wahlao we damn cheapskate sia last year.


i wish i could turn back time to when i don't know this whole shit. when my life was so much better than now. when i thought things are simple and what i see is what it is. when there was nothing much for me to worry about. everything just looked so pure simple innocent and easily-satisfied. what i mean is, when i was still a young child. perhaps like in my primary school years. ok too young. maybe like lower secondary school years. now that i've grown up. now that i finally know i was damn wrong about everything. things are not as simple as what it may seem. people change and they get scary and dangerous. now that i know the truth always hurts. no matter how much pain it brings, you will still have to accept the truth. it don't just take minutes or hours to heal the pain. maybe days? maybe weeks? maybe months? it depends on the situation. the sad thing is, there's probably nothing much you can do about it.

i know.. no pointing grieving over all these stuffs. like what i've said earlier last week, we should not hold on to the past but look forward to greater things that have yet to come! but sometimes those memories just kept haunting and i couldn't do anything too.. but feel sad and sorry and regretful? ok rather than living with another regret (like doing bad for my Os cos i actually got a freaking 31 for my prelims l1r4), maybe i should really get my hands moving and start studying. errrrr but its 12am now, bed time, so i think i shall study tomorrow?^^ (i know, what a stupid excuse)