sometimes, i find myself complicated. i don't even understand myself. whatever i want, whatever i dont like, how was i feeling, i may not say it out. i always expect others to find it out themselves. mainly because i really want to know how it feels like to be cared and loved by others. i may not like the way how complicated i am, but there's still some 'benefits' from it too. when you didnt say anything and people around you started to give up finding out themselves, you know they don't really mean it. they don't love you.